Fakebook

Less or more

You won't be less or more if you are not receiving enough 'likes' on facebook. It's not your real face you show there and you just rarely find your closest friends. Friends who are there for you, when you totally feel like crap.  They encouraging you, 'Hey you my friend, don't you dare give up! I've been there and I've been through but I'm here to help you to bear!

This society tries to force you and me into this materialistic impersonal World. Where you depend on whether the people like you, but mostly they just pretend they are. And until you won't brake out from your bubble world, you will waste your real deal. No offense but you should live in the real world, and make the best out from what you have! And don't say, 'yes maybe on one day, I will be ready', because man you actually living your life NOW, you have to deal with your life and your decisions, to make responsibilities and to make them right. 

To make the right steps will be just harder. It always will appear that you just scroll it in front of you. The truth is that you just have to let it go and to be brave to say 'Hey it was enough'! 

To say NO is perhaps scares you, but trust me it's worth to do.

To find yourself and find the peace beyond will not come from facebook you know.

After every ending there is a beginning

            Thoughts of existence

To help those people whom God brought into your life. To give hope. To be a light. Not to give up. Even though its hard sometimes. Just trust and rely on God. To forgive to those who are not giving you the job. To back out of your past. To say goodbye to your proud. You don't have to be the same as your parents were. To let it go. To forgive to those who you think are better, valuable, more beautiful than you. To have healthy thoughts. To trust in God. Don't let the enemy to turn your thoughts inside out. To be sympathizer. Don't brood over nothingness but instead start to look at the path in front of you. To look into his and her eyes and to understand what comes through them. To be patient. To learn to listen. Not just acting you care for someone, but be there and do it. To listen them, comfort them and love them. To follow the footprints of Christ.

"15 My prayer is not that you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one.20 “My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, 21 that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. 22 I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one— 23 I in them and you in me—so that they may be brought to complete unity. Then the world will know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me." /John 17(NIV)/"

"12 Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13 Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14 And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity." /Colossians 3(NIV)/"

And for closing

From A to B

         Deep Inside

Dissatisfied, because you want to do something. When you do something, you feel that it's not enough at all, that you should do more. Not good enough. Not high quality. Not enough at all. You walk up and down, you want more. You want to move forward. And when it happens you do not appreciate the things you have achieved, you start to concentrate again on your future. 'I wish I could be there, where I want to be!' You longing for it. Your life is filled with this longing. When you don't have a relationship, you desire to have one. When you are in a relationship, after a while, you long for more. You want to quit. You want something new. You hope that the new will be better. You are longing for adrenalin which comes with the new. You are longing for that new taste in your mouth. You are longing for a fulfillment, but instead you feel like you are not moving at all.

Impatient, want to get everything right away. You don't appreciate what you  already have. You act like a kid who goes crazy for a toy in the next two minutes and then throws it away, because you have had enough of it. You are bored. You really want to do something interesting and unique. You want some adventure, some pleasure. You miss something and can't figure out what it is exactly. Always, when you get something, you are disappointed, because you realize that it's not what you have been longing for. You cannot explain yourself, you don't know what  you are longing for. You start to work on this, on that, but you never finish with any of them. Because you get bored very quickly. You aren't really a persistent person. You want to be recognized.  You aren't willing to do any work, which doesn't produce a quick and spectacular result. You are more than happy to work for others as long as it helps you to move forward. When you succeed, you can't let yourself to be happy because you don't feel like it was your success. You don't like to take the lead. If you do take the lead, then you try to escape from the problems, and you rather quit.

Wistfulness. Something incomprehensible and unfathomable keeps yawning in your soul. You are unable to fill it up. You feel like the more you do, the emptier you become. Constant hunger. Rumbling spiritual-starving, uncomfortable feeling. You don't know how to fill it up. You just pass by the entity. You just eat some instant food, but you don't like it at all. You don't have patience and time to make a quality food and then to eat it with a delight. You are dissatisfied with your situation. You are indignant, because you feel like that everyone else lives better though they don't deserve it, but you.

Your character of your religion is filled with yearning prayers. Pretentious, few thanksgiving, a lot of requests. You don't accept what God gives to you. You long for other things, what you didn't get and you feel like God didn't listen to your prayers. You are crying. You don't understand what is wrong.

With difficulty you realize, that you should remain silent for a bit. To listen without expectations. Dwell on the stories. To enjoy the taste of a delicious food. To rejoice in the sunshine and the stars. Indulge yourself into Bible reading. For a while not to do something, just to listen and feel. To mourn yourself. To clear yourself and to see those who are longing for a hug. With difficulty but you realize, that you can be satisfied, because you will get it. That you can be patient, because you will receive it. And you can be inactive, because you are not alone in the service. You can be just yourself.

Are you valuable at all?!?

Youth and self-respect: the hesitant waving of your over- and underestimation. Like a roller coaster, sometimes incredible cliffs, sometimes incredible bumps - maybe that's how I can shortly describe how I feel sometimes. I know, If you would say this out loud, immediately would come two older (and of course wiser) men and they would enlighten you, how worthy you are or you aren't. You will obviously think that the best is, If you listen to what they say, because they should know it better than you. Maybe it had happened with you already, that you listened to them, and after a while you just realized, that they already categorized you in a higher or lower level on the self-respecting scale. You have been naive, you believed that you are a genius, meanwhile other peoples' opinion prevented you from becoming mature. Maybe they said you are not gifted, you believed them and that made you inadequate. Who knows how valuable you are for real?!?

Let's have our next step. I'm quite sure that you have noticed it as well, that everyone has a different opinion about you. If you are a controverted person, just like me, then possibly it has already happened that some "Master Yoda" in your life saw you in different ways. So then you are trying to compare yourself, and at the end, you totally mess up, 'cause you are trying to meet the requirements. 'A bruised reed will he not break, and a dimly burning wick will he not quench', and something like this crosses your mind, while you don't really know who you are anymore. Mostly a bruised reed and dimly burning wick. You are worthless.

'Cause how could be something worthy of note, when no one says an opinion clearly and arguably about it, that 'YES, You are Mr Smith Something, are you valuable at all?!' Please someone name me on my name, and tell me who I am!

"Have no fear, for I have taken up your cause; naming you by your name, I have made you mine. When you go through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they will not go over you: when you go through fire, you will not be burned; and the flame will have no power over you. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your saviour; I have given Egypt as a price for you, Ethiopia and Seba for you. Because of your value in my eyes, you have been honoured, and loved by me; so I will give men for you, and peoples for your life." /Isaiah 43.1-4/"

Thoughts inspired by Shavuot

The Light and the Shadow. The closer you are to the light, the smaller is the the shadow. What is the light and what is the shadow represents? Arrogance vs  Modesty and Humbleness. What happens, when you leave out God from your life? And what happens if you live your life with God? Arrogance is when you forget where you come from, you forget that you are not a god. Arrogance is when you trust in yourself more, without any respect. It is, when you cover yourself, when you build a protective wall around yourself. When you think you are The Boss.

"While he was still speaking these words, a voice called down from heaven, 'O King Nebuchadnezzar, this message is for you! You are no longer ruler of this kingdom. You will be live in the fields with the wild animals, and you will eat grass like a cow. Seven periods of time will pass while you live this way, until you learn that the Most High rules over the kingdoms of the world and gives them to anyone he chooses. That very same hour the prophecy was fulfilled, and Nebuchadnezzar was driven from human society. He ate grass like a cow, and he was drenched with the dew of heaven. He lived this way until his hair was as long as eagles' feathers and his nails were like birds' claws. 
After this time had passed, I, Nebuchadnezzar, looked up to heaven. My sanity returned, and I praised and worshiped the Most High and honored the one who lives forever. 
His rule is everlasting, and his kingdom is eternal. All the people of the earth are nothing compared to him. He has the power to do as he pleases among the angels of the heaven and with those who live on earth. No one can stop him or challenge him, saying, 'What do you mean by doing these things?' 
When my sanity returned to me, so did my honor and glory and kingdom. My advisers and officers sought me out, and I was reestablished as head of my kingdom, with even greater honor than before. Now I, Nebuchadnezzar, praise and glorify and honor the King of heaven. All his acts are just and true, and he is able to humble those who are proud."/Daniel 4,31-37/

You should have a purpose for your life. When does it go to the right direction?! When you are closer to the light. When you are closer to God.

The man with the two pockets. In one side he had a note which said, 'The world was created for me', and the other side he had a note which said, 'I am but dust and ashes'. Whenever he felt so Great, and Unbelievable Strong, he pulled out the one, which said, 'I am but dust and ashes'. And when he felt down, he pulled out the other note, saying 'The world was created for me'. The balance is very important.

At last, King David is a really good example. He was a small guy, and youngest from his brothers. But he had a relationship with the Living God! That's why, even when he was in bad or good situation, he relayed on God, and God always was with him.

Encouraging

Little bon-bons from the Bible

"Unfailing love and faithfulness cover sin; evil is avoided by fear of the Lord."

"When the king smiles, there is life; his favor refreshes like a gentle rain. How much better to get wisdom than gold, and understanding than silver!"

"Those who listen to instruction will prosper; those who trust the Lord will be happy."

"O Lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my every thought when far away. You chart the path ahead of me and tell me where to stop and rest. Every moment you know where I am. You know what I am going to say even before I say it Lord. You both precede and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head."

"Unfailing love and truth have met together. Righteousness and peace have kissed! Truth springs up from the earth, and righteousness smiles down from heaven. Yes, the Lord pours down his blessings. Our land will yield its bountiful crops. Righteousness goes as a herald before him, preparing the way for his steps."

"Kings will stand speechless in his presence. For they will see what they had not previously been told about; they will understand what they had not heard about."

"Come to me with your ears wide open. Listen, for the life of your soul is at stake. I am ready to to make everlasting covenant with you. I will give you all the mercies and unfailing love that I promised to David."

"Seek the Lord while you can find him. Call on him now while he is near."

"I am overwhelmed with joy in the Lord my God! For he has dressed me with the clothing of salvation and draped me in a robe of righteousness. I am like a bridegroom in his wedding suit or a bride with her jewels."

The freedom to disagree

What do I want to say to you?! I want to say I don't agree with you. I have freedom to disagree. I have freedom to live my own life, to make my own decisions the way I want to do them. I have a heart, I have my senses. I feel if something is good, and I feel if something is not. Don't tell me that there isn't a thing like Right or Wrong.

So what is it then, when you are unbelievable happy or when your heart is so broken. How do you explain it? Where is it comes from then?

You are in your twenties. Everyone telling you every kind of advice. Be someone who you are not. That's what they try to tell you. Because if you are not turning to be someone, or you are not gonna start doing things, then you are weird, and strange. Go with the flow, just after the crowd.

And If you don't have a self confidence, you don't trust in yourself. You are afraid to grab your own understanding about things and rely on it.
You feel like you are incapable to make decisions. But there is one fact. YOU are the one person who should make decisions about yourself and then YOU gonna be responsible for them.